From the Journal of Ezra Benson, 4th Period Language Arts, Youngville High School, Youngville, Utah

9/1/15                  I keep my face hard. I got no fear at school. Thats just who I am. Youngville HS I am on the wrestling and football team I play center offensive and defensive. The wall at the gym entrance we hang out at, we are last in class right at the bell! There are the cheerleader girls too at the same wall this is also where the visiting teams have to walk under the Spirit Banner SUX 4 THEM!! LOL. The whole team is LDS but WE “R” HARD the cheerleader girls are all LDS but there is this one Lora who her father is a Ranger he is Federal Government she is like half indian you can see on game day all the cheerleader girls wear their red Skirt and their legs lined up on the wall are all like White White White White Brown and its like Whats wrong with this picture?! HA! She is hot but its like can you get any browner??? Stop tanning already bitch!

9/2/15                  Today is Home Game day I got hit at practice Spence helmeted me in the Pec it is bruised bad like it is black I saw it in the mirror I am skipping gym shower today if Coach finds out I am Bruised bad he will Bench me and then who will cover Bryce? Tell me that! He is the QB he is a skinny PUNK ass he will get killed if I get Benched I am not letting team know about this Bruise I am HARD I am going to PLAY THRU THE PAIN!!!!

9/3/15                  MRS. Schow said write in this Journal every day she will not read it only check the pages to prove if we did our writing every day all year she just flips thru it and puts a stamp on every week but if I lose this Journal then someone will read it Kids @ Youngville HS or my Mom and Dad be like EZRA T. BENSON YOU PUSSY! I dont write nothing they can yank my chain about if you are reading this YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE then you know Ez Benson is HARD who is your Daddy?!?! You know Ez Benson is HA!!!!!

I sat across from Kandace this morning in the Kolob school van she talked to me she is not a cheerleader she is quiet at School but she is the prettiest girl in the School. On Game Day’s the van stays late till after the Game and so Kandace sits under the bleachers + does her homework she is a “Diligent” student which I Respect that. I talked to her on the van ride I said Why are you always doing homework?!! And she was like “I dont want to spend my Whole Life in Kolob there is nothing to do here” that is why she memorizes vocab she said in Kolob we have no “sophisticated” vocab its all cows this and hay that and trucks anyway That much is true! Well she said if you want to get somewhere in life you need to know all the words she has like 500 flash cards she is going to take the PSAT she gets good grades now but she used to get all F’s she is going to move somewhere and go to College. My guidance counselor says College but I SUCK at grades it is BORING I hate school I just go for sports coach says “No Class Your Benched” and so I go to class. I will not be BENCHED in my LIFE! Coach says PLAY HARD GIVE IT YOUR ALL 110% if you want to play at the Top Level! I want to play at the Top Level maybe that is College I hope I grow my Dad is 6 foot 4 280 pounds he is big enough for PRO BALL I am 5 foot 11 190 but only 16 I am still growing I am the heaviest on the team I bench 260 I AM STRONG I lift every School day and the BULK CYCLE bulking up to get BIG coach said the recruiter from SUU and the one from the “Y” know all the Top playaz in the State he said do your lift’s double your squat’s Hit Hard Hit Fair its all about RESPECT the other team will RESPECT you if you Play Hard + Get Big I will be as tall as my Dad before College I pray every night about this. Girls want to be small Boys want to be big all of us want to be Tall Kandace is like 5 foot 9. On the Kolob van we talked about my Mom is driving us over to Cedar City to buy clothes my Mom said mine are wore out Handy said Kandace’s Skirt is too short. Its not too short for me LOL!!!

If this Journal ever gets stole the Truth will be known Kandace Has The Hottest Body She Is So Hot dayum girl I know her Mom does not take her shopping for new clothe’s My secret is I am glad so she can go with me thats like 6 hours in the car over to Cedar and back of course with my Mom there I will not have a chance to put the “Moves” on Kandace LOL! If you are reading this you can SUCK IT.

9/6/15                  Hay cutting is as soon as it dries we had rain I AM SO SICK of hay driving that Swather would not be so bad but we have the Old School rusty old Massey I hate that piece of junk driving it back and forth all day sneezing and itching my Dad wants the windrows straight to not miss any Hay is expensive this year “NO HAY NO TRUCK” he always says he said I can have the pickup soon as he can buy a new one then I can drive Kandace to School NO MORE RIDES ON THE ****ING VAN!!!

9/7/15                  YOUNGVILLE 21 BITTER SPRING 14!!!! SUCK IT YOU FAGS! I got 2 sacks Dad took me to get a burger he said “That was fine playing son you played hard you saw the opening and you executed” Halftime and post Game I got hugs from the cheerleaders. When I hit Shitter Spring’s QB Tyson Callister I hit him so hard he just lay there. Coach came out and he was all “Take A Knee” we took a Knee he is always like “No Smiling No Talking Show Your Respect For The Downed Soldier give him an applause when he get’s up be SPORTSMANLIKE”. You keep your face hard kneel and hold your helmet. Last year I hit this one kid we hit helmets he was pass blocking I was running hard for the Sack when we hit helmets there was this sound I hate it was like a “subtle” sound that goes way into my left ear so now when I hear a whisper or any soft speaking such as a prayer or papers in the church microphone or anybody making soft talking on my left ear or ESPECIALLY soup sounds or chewing with your mouth open I GET ENRAGED like it sets me OFF hearing this “subtle” stuff. I know this is weird I think my ear got broke inside when we hit helmets. No way am I telling anybody I would get Benched. So I sat next to Kandace today at lunch and she got a Mountain Dew and the pull tab when she pulled it and the fizz of the pop popping out and her sucking on it or “SLURPING” I expected would make me INSANE ANGRY so I was forcing myself to be all cool and like not show her how these sounds make me go like PSYCHO and so when she pulled the pull tab and there was that like SHKRRRRCKPOP sound I was totally in CONTROL DISCIPLINE!!!! AND IT DID NOT MAKE ME ENRAGED instead it made me SEXUALLY AROUSED! it was like the most SEXUAL thing I ever heard in my Left Ear a.k.a. Horny as Frik!!! I was like 0-60 in 1 point zer0 seconds! So I think I have a hardwire from my left ear to my Dick from that one kid helmeting me. Now if I lose this Journal I will have to move to another country! LOL! First time I knew about my Left Ear was I was giving my little brother Ephraim a titty twister in church and my Mom whispered in my Ear to stop it and her whisper set me off like a Mad Dog I punched the Hymnal holder thing so hard it broke off. My Dad is the Bishop he was up on the stand my Mom smaked me my Dad came down his hand goes all the way around my Bicep he is Huge he made me sit in the truck the rest of Sacrament Meeting. I had my iPod I rocked out for a minute but the sounds in the Earbuds in my Left Ear made me go BERZERK again now I can’t hear chewing or “slurping” or whispering in that ****ed up Ear but I go apeshit except I guess Kandace and when she makes one of those sounds in my Left Ear I get AROUSED AS FRIK. My own noises I have to control too I have to swallow my food and NOT CHEW IT I practice on myself chewing and sucking and it helps but like brushing my teeth on the left makes this pressing in my chest on my heart I think I will have a Heart Attack. Loud noises help if I go shooting the loud sound of the rifle if I take my left earplug out cures the RAGE for like two days it is a relief I wish I could go deaf in my Left Ear I never sit with a person to my left EXCEPT KANDACE if she whispered in my Left Ear it would be like “Uh, We Need To Get Married” you turned me on that much! In my Left Ear. if my Mom whispers in my Left Ear again I may not be able to Control myself the RAGE is ****ing serious Coach says DISCIPLINE I am getting that tattooed on my wrist when I get home from my mission but I have ZERO CONTROL over my Rage response to any soft sounds in my Left Ear.